(photo by J.B. Forbes)
It was a very painful day. Some of us agreed that it felt like there was a spirit of death in the place, no matter where people stood in their convictions. And I felt complicit in it.
The day started with worship, during which we prayed words together that ushered me into a deeper conceptualization of the faith by which I long to walk:
Faith can be cloistered, an in-house debate
An object to study, a reason to hate
Faith can be closets with things put away
A good bit of talking with nothing to say
But when faith is a lifetime instead of a day
A constant rebirth, not a token to pay
If faith is the worldview beyond the decree
Then nothing’s outside what the faithful can see
No, nothing’s outside what the faithful can see
As we offered those words in unison, it was a moment of personal repentance for me, an opportunity to carry to the cross my tendency to reduce discipleship to a matter of debate—a fresh chance to lay at Jesus’ feet my “good bit of talking with nothing to say.” I quietly prayed that this Christ-follower (and Christ’s church) would become more passionate about seeing faith as a lifetime journey instead of an episodic paying of a spiritual token.
The General Conference spent the entire day engaging in its work as a LEGISLATIVE COMMITTEE. This requires just a moment of procedural explanation. In the work of a more typical General Conference, the delegates are divided into several smaller legislative committees. Each one of these smaller committees is assigned a variety of petitions categorized under a particular ministry area (Church and Society; Higher Education; Faith and Order; Discipleship; Financial Administration; Global Ministries; General Administration; Local Church; Superintendency; etc.) The purpose of each legislative committee in a typical General Conference is to review and refine the legislation assigned to it and then to make a recommendation to the entire General Conference which would then take final action on the legislation.
In this special called session of the General Conference, since all of the legislation is somehow related to deliberation about the denomination’s Way Forward, the decision was made to have just one legislative committee to which all of the delegates would be assigned. In other words, the plan was for the entire General Conference to become a legislative committee for a designated period of time, so that all of the delegates could work on refining the legislation and then vote on what legislative recommendations to carry into the plenary session.
Today, the General Conference engaged in its work as a legislative committee, addressing all of the legislation entrusted to its care. The deliberation and debate were frequently difficult and, at times, excruciatingly painful. The delegates, some with extraordinary vulnerability, all with passionate conviction, shared their stories, their hopes, their fears, and their perspectives, all for the purpose of determining legislative recommendations that will demand final action at tomorrow’s plenary session.
Here is where it gets painful.
As a legislative committee, delegates ultimately took the following actions:
- Supported the Traditional Plan—meaning that the Traditional Plan (which both maintains and intensifies the denomination’s current ban on same sex weddings and ordination) will come to tomorrow’s plenary session for final vote
- Opposed the One Church Plan, the Connectional Conference Plan, and the Simple Plan, all of which would have removed the Discipline’s current language related to homosexuality and created safe space for a wide variety of convictions within the denomination (There is a chance that the One Church Plan might find its way into tomorrow’s plenary session, but this will require the approval of a minority report, which is an uphill battle in this case.)
- Supported two disaffiliation proposals which would institute a process by which United Methodist churches could leave the denomination with their property
- Requested a ruling from United Methodism’s Judicial Council on the constitutionality of the Traditional Plan (about which delegates should receive information tomorrow)
What am I able to say about all of this by way of personal reflection? Not much at this point. I am weary and burdened—even broken—tonight.
Many traditionalist United Methodists view today’s legislative actions as a necessary preservation of what they believe to be a timeless Biblical teaching on marriage and sexuality. (I am praying, however, that their hearts will not permit them to rejoice, given the devastation that others in the denomination are experiencing.)
I also realize that many people in the United Methodist portion of the body of Christ are weeping tonight. Weeping because they no longer know what their place is in the church. Weeping because they feel isolated, excluded, abandoned, even demonized. Weeping because they believe that Jesus is walking with them but that his church isn’t.
All evening long, I have been reaching out to people in my life who most likely experienced today’s legislative actions as something hurtful. I encourage you to be attentive to those same people in your life. They are there, after all, probably somewhere nearby, hurting and uncertain, wondering if you see them—really see them—and wondering if you really care.
I am not inviting debate with this post (since there has been enough of that already). I guess more than anything else, I am inviting your desperate prayer for the United Methodist tribe. Irrespective of your theological stance, allow yourself to be heartsick, tearful, and undone by the anguish of a church that is fractured but hopeful; broken but beautiful; sinful but messily and awkwardly sanctified.
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Praying for all of you my dear friend. May the Grace and Mercy given to us through Christ Jesus be the place where your souls find peace.
God be with you and give you rest
Thanks again, Eric! I appreciate you taking time, out an intensive day, to share your thoughts with me. Prayers continue. Blessings, my friend!
I agree. Thank you for sharing and know many feel burdened and praying from afar.
I am so proud of you Eric to be so compassionate for our religion, may our Lord Jesus guide you through this process
Praying for all. I understand how you feel, although not to the degree you have experienced it. I have been struggling too with the need for a church who stands for biblical values but is yet saddened by those who will feel abandoned by the church. This is a very difficult time. Bless you.
Thanks for your heart and love of all God’s children,yet maintaining the Word!
Thank you, Eric for these posts. I worried that this time in the UMC would find its way to hurting more than loving. I find that my worries were accurate. Whether I have “won” or “lost” at this point means nothing. All that matters is that we have failed to love as a people and as a church. I am trying not to mourn over what is laid before us. I tell myself to wait and see where everything lands in the end. None the less, I find my heart is broken.
Thank you Eric, may peace and calm find it’s way into the hearts of all of the UMC.
The problem here is that our high level church leaders are the ones who pushed this issue into the agenda in the first place. They apparently do not believe in the supremacy of God’s own Word. This has given credence to the issue just by virtue of having it on the table to discuss and argue. This should never be discussed at all. God is very clear on the topic. Read the book of Romans. We can certainly love the sinners but the sinners have to understand the sin.
Thank you for your update. I am feeling sadly “undone” – more than I expected. Praying that today is a better day for everyone.
Thank you ERic, thought I am not really involved in the church any longer my heart still aches for what was once my entire life! God knows someone said to me today as I was contemplating is we as a church need to figure out how to accept each other in love without breaking our core beliefs with no damnation! No judgment! Just love and support for each other!!! One of the reasons my prayer for all gatherings or any church is “Please Lord let man leave HIS agenda at the door, and replace it with YOUR agenda! THank you again even though I am not I still love my church!!!
As i continue to keep you all in prayer
Thank you , I have a better understanding now
May the Holy Spirit who inspired the Bible encourage us when we obey him.
Your words didn’t simply fall upon my ears, Eric, but became embedded in my heart. I am so sincere when I express my deepest appreciation for your sensitive and moving explanation of what transpired at the conference. As I had said before, the conference was extremely blessed to have you there! I believe your words reflect the sincere love you have for ALL people. Thank you for everything you continue to do for our church body.
Thank you for your heartfelt words. My family has been praying for all of you at general conference. ❤️
Nice article. Terrible actions by the church. Joined because it was safe for all. Will be leaving and taking my donations with me. Will also be campaigning for churches to begin being taxed do to them being polical and pushing hate.
Thank you Eric for taking the time to share your thoughts.
Bless You Eric for this article Prayers to all and to You
There is no way to measure the depth of disappointment and sorrow I feel at the spirit and actions of this Conference.